I died so I could haunt you

If you visit me on Flickr, than you've heard this story already but otherwise...
About a week ago my camera was on my tripod when it fell face down to the ground. I can't tell you how, did I bump into it? Did the dog? The wind? All I know is the sheer panic when I saw it plummeting to the ground. And then the complete relief when I picked it up and everything was fine. No broken glass, still taking photos, still auto-focusing.
Little did I know, I was just on borrowed time. Yesterday I noticed my photos were looking a bit distorted, and not getting in focus. Confused, I went to look at the lens, when it fell into two pieces!
The little plastic bits which hold it together were clearly damaged in the fall, and after a few days, just broke off completely and caused the lens to separate.

I'm really upset about this, not even so much over the lens, but the fact that it happened to me. I'm not supposed to be this clumsy forgetful person. I have friends like that, ones who lose every cell phone they get or have broken half a dozen cameras.

Since I've had this camera I have lost* it, and now I've broken [a part of] it. WHO AM I?

The lens can't be fixed, it's plastic, and you can't just stick little plastic bits back together again. If I replace it, I have three choices.
1) the f1.8, the same lens for $100 which is cheap, and I've been generally happy with it.
2) the f1.4, for $350 with the biggest difference (as far as I'm concerned) being in regards to the bokeh. The bokeh on the 1.8 appears as hexagons, while the 1.4 has pretty, circular bokeh.
3) the f1.2, for $1,459 which is an actual, professional lens, and if I were somehow profiting from my photography, this would be a wonderful lens to have. Anyone want to give me money?

My brother thinks this is a good reason to get the f1.4, but I'm tempted to just re-buy the 1.8. Based on the plethora of bad reviews on Amazon, this is a common problem, second only to the auto focus failing after a year. That seems to be the life span of the this lens. So mine has lasted 9 months.

You are probably super bored, and not even reading anymore. Sorry!!!

I'll talk about the clothes now and stop sobbing.

I'm wearing two dresses again, I really like using the shirt dress as a layering piece now, which is so much better than having it sit around in my closet collecting lint. And this printed dress -- I never thought I would get so much use out of it, but this is the fifth time I've worn it this year. (Does that not sound like very much? Well I think it is. Especially for a dress with such a bold print.)

I'm trying to start wearing scarves more, since I have so many and it's starting to get cooler. This one I picked up in Italy for one euro. I should have gotten a bunch more to give as gifts, but I guess I wasn't thinking that far in advance.

It's also too soon for tights. I think I'm resisting until at least October, which will be here sooner than I think. Wearing tights will mean summer is truly gone. But boots are okay for now :)

The Rundown

Shirt Dress DKNY - Printed Dress Avon - Booties Steve Madden - Scarf Market in Italy

*I was taking a train home from New Haven, and in the station, the board said my train was on track 10. I go to the track, the train is there, I sit down, take off my bags, get settled - then a conductor tells me the train I'm on isn't leaving for half an hour and my train is on track 8! So I grab my things and RUN to track 8, make the train, get settled again, but, WHERE IS THE CAMERA BAG? Before I have a complete melt down, I go and find the conductor and tell him what happened. He calls the other train, and tells me to just wait at my stop, the other train will be by in half an hour. So I endure a painful 30 minutes and the other train pulls in, the door opens, the conductor has my camera bag. I almost give her a huge hug, but just thank her profusely.
And that is how I lost my camera.