Just a Day Fading Into Another

I wish I could say I've been using my time well. That quarantine has given me the opportunity to focus on creative pursuits, or read more, or accomplish a task that requires my attention for a length of time I might not typically have.

Instead, the days just seem to blur together; books sit without their spines cracked, my closet remains unedited, rather than reaching out to friends, my phone sits quite, its only purpose is to guarantee packages keep arriving at my door everyday. Shopping, my only attempt at finding comfort during this time is perhaps the most useless.

I feel as though my life has been striped of autonomy, that I can't make myself a latte because we are worried about running out of milk, nor can I just pop into the store and buy more milk. I feel stressed about going out for the tiny handful of dog walks I have at the moment, even though they are the only part of my life giving me a sense of purpose, a reason to go outside, and the comfort of affection only a dog can give, even while I'm not supposed to be allowing kisses and keeping contact to a minimum.

So I shop. I shop to feel as though I have some effect on my world around me, to feed the daydreams of times when I can go out in the world and wear what I've purchased, to give me something to look forward to as time keeps passing by. I know it's not the right way to cope, it's just all I feel like I can do right now. 

     

The Rundown
Ribbed Cardigan Dress Banana Republic
Cream Booties Aerosoles
Brown Round Bag Mark Cross thrifted similar
Aries Pendant Necklace Mejuri
Midi Stackable Diamond Ring c/o AUrate New York
Thin Gold Ring Etsy via Ellyn Blue Jewelry
Signet Ring Sashi
Sunglasses "Meteor" Ray-Ban c/o TJMaxx